And yet again..

I thought i was over and done with writing proposals after GPP/WR.

I forgot about the planning bit in being an OGL. =.=

Reflections of Life

Today, i feel tired. And when i am tired, i tend to slow down and think about stuff in my life.

When i did so just now, i realised that this 6 months of Junior College life has change me considerably. There has been many "first's" happening to me for the past half a year, and after some thought, i have come to the conclusion that all the new experiences that i had been through has made me grow, both physically and more importantly, mentally.

In this year, i have first:
1) Sacrificed so much of my leisure time for work
2) Failed so many tests and also exams
3) Known how to prioritise (properly)
4) Been so honest with my friends
5) Been a pillar of support for so many
6) Felt so close with my friends
7) Felt so sad for my friends
8) Cared so much for my friends that i am willing to go all out to help them
9) Said it

Well, it has been an interesting experience, JC life. I am glad i made this choice.

I thought long and hard.
And i acted with all of my heart.



And i am willing to wait.

P.S. Happy birthday to Jansen.

What now?

Somehow, it feels as if something is missing in my life.

Someone fill that void, please.

GMH

Relieved

Help will always be there for those who ask for it.

And the sense of satisfaction felt when i see those people happy, is immeasurable.

Mitosis

Promos are bad. But post-promotional exam period is the one that is the most daunting.

Being a bystander of someone in trouble is against my nature.
Help will always be around, but there's not enough of it to go around.
I wish i can split myself up so that i can extend my circle of support.


On a lighter note, i think studying/preparing for bio olympiad sucks too.

About you

My alter egos:
1) Mugger
2) Player
3) Listener/comforter
4) A normal guy who just wants a normal life and not feel so worried all the time..

Wow!~

I've just discovered a new word/emotion/state of mind.

Tetralemma [teh-truh-lem-ma]
–noun
describes a situation requiring a choice between 4 equally undesirable alternatives.
i.e. stuck between a rock, a hard place, a cliff, and a ravine.


How cool is that? =.=

Concerns

Its my instincts (which bodes ominously) versus his words (which foretells reassurance).

But i do sincerely hope that he is the one that is correct..

Source: http://thingsweforget.blogspot.com/

Whatever happens, do not give up.

To the general public out there who thinks that i am emo-ing: I'm not.
I am just that sad some of us may not be together in the same class again next year.

Also, i would like to thank gillian and amelia for the thank you cards. They are beautiful. (:


Cool place

Emotions

When i look at the expressions of some teachers when they give back their promo scripts, i feel bad. It is an expression of sadness and disappointment, because we did not perform up to expectations.

It is an emotion which i will remember but hopefully, not experience in the future.

Not having enough time is not an excuse
Everybody has equal amounts of it
But its up to us to decide what we want to do with it
Make full use of it, and you will not regret it.

Life, Play

Life's a stage, and we are but actors in the play.

How i actually wish its like that.

At least most, if not all, shows have happy endings.




Many people walk in and out of your life, but true friends leave footprints behind.

To me, footprints arent enough. Just stay.



Leave no room for mistakes or regrets.
But unfortunately, i've left some..

One for all and all for one

My family is very united. We all have Jet.

Nice song..


Ginny was just telling me how she got chased by dogs while photograhing lallangs. LOL!!! xDD

Friend or foe?

Bio Olympiad is... tedious. Very tedious

Re-living

The feel of the Sun's warmth on my skin, truely feels great.

What on Earth have I been missing out on all this while?


P.S.
Anyone up for skating at ECP?

Zero Degrees Celcius

ICE
SKATING
ROCKS.

I just wished that the rink was bigger, so i can go faster and faster and faster..
But still, its great. =D

Bane or blessing?

Seriously, freedom is not all its hyped up as it should be.

Maybe it should be spelled as "FreeDOOM" instead. Ok, that just sounds really ominous.. o.0

Oh well. ice skating later. Hope its similar to normal skating. Dun wanna make a fool out of myself. lol

Time: negative 2 hours..

Following the three words "You may leave", the hall erupted into cheers and laughter.

Excited babbles broke out, with topics ranging from which movie to watch to which place to go. He slunk away from all the excitement, quietly packing his belongings and leaving. He did not contribute to the excitement, nor did he want to in the first place. Like a phantom, he left for home, not speaking at all during the journey.

His mood was as heavy as ever when he reached home. Not because he was concerned about what the results of the examination would be, for he knew he would be fine. Not because nobody had asked him out to celebrate, for there was an invitation. Not because he had nothing to do later on, for there were games to be played. No, it is something which he could not quite put a finger on. It is the feeling of emptiness. The space previously occupied and pressed upon by the weight of exams had lifted. Without that pressure, the space acted like all matter should when relieved of the pressure acting upon it: it expanded.

It was like the universe, getting bigger and bigger following its creation. The sheer size and rate of growth of the void threatened to engulf him in its icy depths. And he know that it is going to happen unless he did something about it. But this predicament is complex. Getting the solution would be like placing a Sun in to the void, it would displace out the darkness and cold that blanketed him, and in its place leave a shining warmth which encouraged life and growth. No doubt it would be effective, but getting it would also be fiendishly difficult, for it was something which cannot be synthesised or bought. But instead, had to be cultivated.

Silent night

So much for moon-gazing yesterday.. Did anyone even bother?
Well at least it was a good night's sleep, albeit getting up at 2am to check what RNA polymerase II is. Dun worry amelia, dun feel guilty, it was my curiosity that got the better of me. =D

P.S.
You look perfectly Singaporean to me, so, who cares?

P.S.S.
Anyone counting down to end of promos? Its just 31 hours more!!!

I am not worried about myself..

Everytime you say that you are screwed, i feel sad.
If only they are as doable for you as they are to me.
But alas, i discovered Fate too late, and all that i can do now is to hope for the best.


I wish i could have been of more help.